Dear Mr. Right

So if you are more of a reader *cough* Jared. Bare with me and listen to the short vlog which is just an introduction to the blog following the short video I promise. This blog is a future letter to my Mr. Right whoever that may be whether I have met that person already or not. It is a brief ever sweet note letting them peer into my soul and see just a little bit that is me.

Dear Mr. Right,

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life and in change there is power."-Alan Cohen

You know, I have released much of the things familiar to me lately and my life is filled with more fresh air and light than it ever has been. I am now excited to come across someone to exist with, someone that can join me on the spicy and sweet adventurous parts of life. I long for companionship and travel. But I do not long to settle down. I hope you "Crave me in the most innocent form. Crave to say good night and give me forehead kisses and say that you adore me when I am at my worst. Crave me in ways where you just want to be next to me and nothing more or less."

I want you to know that thus far I have been treated much in the same manor as a rag doll, no woman should be treated that way, including me.

I am smart, gorgeous and strong. Do not underestimate me.

"She never looked nice. She looked like art and art wasn't supposed to look nice, it was supposed to make you feel something."-Free People

I hope when I meet you if we haven't met already, that we fall crazy in love and never recover from an adventurous, do anything once, chocolate chili pepper stupor. I hope you see me as the whole picture and not just the paints. I also hope you fall in love with all the messy bits that are me. I hope you fall head over heels in love with my words, hat hair, makeup-less face, and inner warrior.

"she's a rare breed, matter fact, she's an endangered species, her heart's been broken and just like mine it remains in pieces, but every time we're near each other, smile is all we can do; our shattered souls intertwine, I know I've felt the same agonizing pain that she's been through and I find comfort in her grasp so I reach out with both arms..."

I hope when we meet, you find sanctuary in and around me. I hope my presence helps heal your broken bits as much as I hope your presence helps to heal mine. I truly hope that our shattered souls grasp each other in an embrace that fuses the shattered bits together so that there is no longer two separate broken entities but one beautiful sculpture.

I want you to know that you've fallen for: a hopeless romantic, who also has a hippie streak, who loves kids, and books, and stargazing, and candles, and meditation, and the quite room, who will hopefully have a tattoo by the time our souls intertwine, and who will unconditionally love you, no matter what, who believes in spreading as much of this love that fills her up to as many people as she possibly can.

I can't wait to meet you, if we haven't already,

 Love,

Me <3

Well wanderers, the secret is out, I am a hopeless romantic, but isn't that such a huge underrated part of living this journey and life....Love? Falling in a crazy sweet love from which we never recover, but really truly loving and be okay with that love, accepting it? On the worst days, isn't that what we live for, isn't it what we hope for and long for? The love and companionship of another human being who will love us despite the messy bits and struggling bits. who will "love us when we are a still day and a hurricane"? A person who thinks, "I don't know a perfect person. I only know flawed people who are still worth loving." -John Green.

Wouldn't you kill to even meet someone like that. I know I have met people like that, and they are some of the most beautiful humans I have ever seen. So here it is, Love, my love letter to someone in this universe hopefully destined for me someday. I challenge every single one of you that has read this far to write a similar letter, if you don't want to post it, fine, don't, but save it and make your bid for love, because after all that is the fire of this universe, love makes this life truly worth it.

Love onward,

dream upwards,

Stay sweet,

Try something new,

Love,

Me,

So Loves <3

why we should all take a lesson from Walter Mitty.

So new vlog for all of you. I am really excited.  I hope you love it! It's about why we should all take a life lesson from Walter Mitty the character in The Secret Life of Walter Mitty.

Love, peace and laughter,
So Loves

Do we do what's easy?

So instead of a my normal written out post, I have a vlog for you today! yay! I wrote it out ahead of time and I read it to you downtown at the sundial fountain where I live :) enjoy.

Enjoy,

SoLoves <3

Turtles and Trust

You know what I love about turtles? I love their fearlessness. I love that they know they have shells to hide in and they choose to sun bathe anyway.

I especially love that recent little turtle that has gone viral that plays "fetch" with a dog. I mean come onnnnn how on earth does it know that the dog won't eat him on accident or otherwise?

I love that even after something tries to eat a turtle, it still comes out of its shell, it's not like, "okay one and done guys, one and done". It doesn't just throw in the towel like us humans do sometimes.

You know what else I love? I love the curiosity of turtles. I mean lets be real, what on earth compels a turtle to play with a dog arguably at least 50 times its size or to swim up to a shiny canoe full of rather loud idiots or to allow a child to race it against other turtles, why doesn't it just hide in its shell?

So what's it's deal? Are turtles stupid...... or are they fearless.....or are they just to trusting for their own good?

If we take a brief look into native american history and literature. They have something called turtle island, basically it is that each appendage of the turtle represents 3 things: a noble attribute, a element and a direction. So I would argue that turtles are a whole lotta fearless and trusting.

A tiny small animal laughing and saying "YOLO" but then again, maybe not.

So maybe you're thinking, "why on earth is she questioning me about the motives of a turtle and proceeding to tell me about it?"

This is why.

Do we do whats easy and hide in our shells or throw up our walls?

Or do we swim out, reach up, and touch the boat?

Do we trust the people in our lives enough to level with them and then proceed to have faith in them, or do we use the walls to our advantage, sometimes only letting the other person see through the glass?

Deep down I know that we are capable of being the turtles of native american wisdom and story. I know this because I have seen it. But I also know it is much easier to be the hidey hole turtle. The Dr. Jekyll turtle over the Mr. Hyde turtle. Sometimes it is reasonable but most of the time we are the ones that loose out when we refuse to trust and have a little faith.

I guess I want to tell you to trust people, just like that little turtle trusts the big dog he plays with. To have faith in people just like the turtle has faith in the young boy racing him.

Life will be a lonely harsh road to live it otherwise.

This is just one way to make it brighter and lovelier.


Love onward,
My sweet sweet wanderers.
So Loves <3