Sometimes when you're alone for a long period of time instead of it being a virtuous endeavor it becomes an ego thing. It becomes a, I value myself so much that I wrap myself in a million suits of armor, and there is a big difference between those two things. One hurts you and others and "thee other" legitifies the journey. This is probably a struggle that I imagine most of us have. An internal battle over our pride and ego vs. whats right and relieving.
This is a lesson that took me a while to learn as a matter of fact it was 3 hard months of learning the hard way and it is something I deeply regret but also something I am growing to respect as a necessary journey and one that my true self needed.
Life is full of life changing regrets. Sometimes all it takes is an impulse to want to make things right and sometimes that will require you to jump the ego hurdle, but one that is well worth it, sometimes there is no replacement for true friends. Often times that is the case.
In the light it may become necessary for us to set aside differences and look at the situation with new eyes. It's difficult even I know that from experience but most often it is also necessary. Being able to overcome that kind of thing says something about us as a person. It says that I'm stronger than the affliction, I'm more mature than the situation, and I believe enough to forgive.
