Cafeteria Us

Today, I have discovered a new found love for myself.
"The sun is shining the tank is clean...*gasp* the tank is clean"
Just kidding.
But it is a good day. So good I think I'm going to go have a slice of that thick homemade cheesecake at Piloras Cafe. And maybe a slice of Papa Johns Stuffed Pizza and Ittie Bitz generic Dippin Dots Ice Cream and maybe a glass or two of Fre non-alcoholic wine. And I'm going to have and eat all the things I love because I love me. I'm going to go to a local band concert and enjoy the sun. And I'm going to shine so bright that I blind anyone and everyone.

See I'm going through this thing,
where I'm learning to love:
cheese cake eating me,
hour glass me,
anxiety me,
greasy pizza eating me,
soul food me,
writing to you on the blog me,
the messy bits me.

Today I am the me that sits in the quiet room with my friend Mike and that is a good me. In fact I love that me. My goodness has she come a long way. And that me is learning to love herself: is learning to love herself and the calories while eating the most amazing cheese cake in the world. Is learning to love herself while she is single and on her shady trail alone. Is learning to love herself on the best days of healing and the worst days of healing, because this is amazing me. And life is a Beautiful Struggle. No matter what, always beautiful.

So here I am on campus, contemplating cafeteria us. The us the picks the best and worst parts of life or refuses to try something new because we are frightened. And I think we should let our inhibitions go and just eat the Artisan Hamburger on Rye and the homemade cheesecake with the side of grapes covered in cream cheese sauce with roasted glazed walnuts on top. I think we should just throw our hands up in the air and be the best versions of ourselves that we can possibly manage. I think we should wish on all the stars not just the first one because life is short and unpredictable and we only get this one shot to be incredibly awesome.

Stars light,
Stars bright,
All the stars I see tonight,
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Have the wishes I wish to night.

This is part of freedom,
This is part of being the unedited version of us,
look at how beautiful it all is.

Cafeteria Us,
Silly Us,
Travel Us,
Fearless Us.

Live Like There's No Tomorrow,
So Loves <3