Trust, Rejection, and Abandon

For a few days I have been pondering on what my next post will be and finally in the last few days, I've figured it out.

I feel like some of the most tough things that true wanderers of life struggle with are trust, rejection, and abandon. A lot of the time these things are the results of bad relationships or friendships that went down the drain slowly but surely.

On a personal note, this is something I find myself struggling with. I find that most of the time these feelings alienate me from others and make me feel alone. As I attempt to cope with these constant feelings, I know others do to. Despite that, it doesn't make it any easier. Everyday I fight these demons inside my head and sometimes I'm not strong enough and I'll admit to that. It's not easy, it never was. some days more than others it's difficult to overcome these feelings. They make it hard to make new friends or be with someone else and sometimes they make it especially hard to be by yourself. I really don't think there is a cure, but there are a few things that can help, such as talking about your personal life, what makes you tick, who you are,  and what experiences got you there. You will always struggle some days worse than others but keep working at it because it will get better, you might never ever be able to get rid of these feelings that bog you down but it will get better. It's getting better for me and I'm constantly working at it so I faithfully believe that it can and will get better for you. Have fun on your journey.
Love always,

So

Life is Tough When You're Losing Friends

Life is tough when you feel people you love slipping away. People will tell you to just let those people go and you will tell yourself, that you don't need them, but do you.....need them? No matter how much we tell ourselves that we don't need those friends, the ones that ignore us, or bail on us, I don't know if we always believe ourselves. Life is tough without friends. It's killer, friends are supposed to support us and talk to us, invoking the confidence we sometimes lack but need. Other times it's good that we decide not to be friends any longer with those people, even if it hurts and feels horrible. Sometimes not being friends with that person or people means that we value ourselves. It means that we care about how we're being treated and we know that there are other people that will treat us better out there. Sometimes even though it's difficult, it is important that we stay strong and continue to value ourselves. Friends have to stand up and meet personal requirements. Under no circumstances should the friendship be one-sided....ever. There will always be more people and new people, people you will value more that the people you might have known forever. Even though Life is Tough When you're Losing Friends, keep pushing on through, I know I am.

Common Decency

Last Night I had the privileged of watching a play that my sister was in called, "Just Like Me". This is a play about people with disabilities and how they are just like us, how they want the same things, how they want to be treated the same, but it's also about how the way people treat them differently because they don't see them, they just see their disability. Now Currently I am in school and it is the day after: I was walking in the hallway with a special needs boy that I do so love. When he was younger, my mom was his assistant and taught him. His name is Noah and we were turning a corner in the hallway and we stopped because the intersection was crazy and we needed to get across. Some girl decided to shove me and kind of him into the mass of moving people. And after seeing this play, all I could think of was how rude of her. Maybe she didn't know he was special needs or maybe she had some personal vendetta against me despite the fact that I didn't know her, whatever her reason it was a stupid one. See not pushing people and not shouting for them to move just because they are inconveniencing you is called being a decent person. And being a decent person is nice. It's nice for other people and it will make you feel better to. See I don't know what that girl was thinking when she pushed me but what she didn't realize, is that Noah makes me happy and he's always happy I never seen anything but a smile on that kids face and her pushing could've hurt both of us but after she did it, all Noah said was, "That was mean, she should go in the Naughty corner."  And he was right.

Thought for the day

We have to dare to be ourselves, however frightening or strange that self may prove to be. -May Sarton

In a world that is constantly trying to change who we are it is essential that we strive to be the truest, deepest, most understanding version of ourselves. the more balanced we are on the inside, the more balanced the things around us are.

Enlightenment or Something Like That

I feel like many of us life travelers struggle to find our purpose in life, it always seems like its many things all that once and many that really is our destiny to be many things and serve many purposes. But more often then not we spend much time trying to search these things out forgetting that our purpose(s) is more often then not, right in front of us, something we do normally without any seeking. I think that by doing what we love and are meant to do, we fill a void inside of us. One that makes us feel more whole as a person. An interesting concept, but one that I feel like I've experienced myself. We are most happiest doing what we believe we are meant to do and being whom we believe we are meant to be.
Love and Peace,
So

And today the snow is black

Today I lost a very dear friend to me, her heart and lung condition stole her away and I don't think I will ever be the same. She could change your whole world just by looking at you. RIP Emily.<3 I find hope in the darkest of days, and focus in the brightest. I do not judge the universe. 
Dalai Lama 

I think this is very true for most of us life travelers. People look at people that are different, differently. I think. I love this though. It is one of those many things us life travelers must have on the Bucket List if we haven't already completed it.